Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes

I have been feeling pretty run down lately. I usually just chalk it up to my anemia and my general laziness. After this past weekend with Budzo, I developed a bit of a cold (thanks kid). On top of the cold and feeling run down, I also haven’t been sleeping. I’m talking weeks here people. Seriously, not one good night sleep since the first of June. So I went and talked to my beloved doctor. Can I just say I love, love, love my doctor? While I would prefer not to wait 45 minutes to spend 5 with her, I suffer through the wait because she actually cares. I told Dr. what was going on. I really went because of the head cold but she was more focused on the sleeplessness and the 3 freakin’ hot flashes I had in her office. It would appear that at 35 you can be pre-menopausal. B @ 35=pre-menopausal. While she does not yet have the chemical study of my body to back it up, she is pretty damn sure. I think the fact that my mother started going through it at 37 and the fact that my maternal great-grandmother also started in her late 30’s is a great sign that I too am going to be an early bloomer.
I just can’t wrap my head around it. At an age when other women my age are starting or increasing their family, I’m on the downhill run. I know that some will say that I am over-reacting to an iffy diagnosis. I know that my doc is right. With all the “female problems” I have had since I was 11, I know my body. I know that the night sweats, hot flashes, inability to sleep and overactive mood swings are indicative of the change of life. I know that I have experienced all of these on a regular basis and I now know that my own suspicions are going to be proven correct.
Am I being a little melodramatic? Probably.
Am I jumping the gun on self diagnosis? I don’t’ think so (especially since my doc had that look in her eye that I was right).

I guess I’ll find out next month when I go in for blood tests. In the mean time, I’m keeping myself happy knowing that I won’t have to wait as long as the rest of you to say goodbye to “the curse”.